The word fragment is both a noun and a verb. It’s the small pieces left over after breaking something and the action of breaking.
I feel fragmented when I walk into the same room over and over again and can’t remember what is exactly I needed. You too?
I feel fragmented when I look at the calendar and there are four events with only 30 minutes of breath in between. How did we end up this busy? Why is there so much on each day? I thought I homeschooled to have more margin space in our days.
I feel fragmented when I’m too overwhelmed to notice all of the real good in my life. When I micro-focus on the to-dos, not the people who need the to-dos. I notice all the bad habits that annoy me, I forget to say I appreciate you. I notice that a child consistently forgets to hold the door when I’m right behind them. I notice how many outfit changes happen in one day, instead of the appreciating the fact my family is active and healthy and that we own our own washer and dryer.
I’m a joy seeker.
At my core, I’m a people over productivity evangelist. I don’t see danger or thrills or adrenaline rush. I seek joy and happiness and silly. I seek connection and harmony. I seek to feel overwhelmed by the simple marvels of the whole world.
When I’m fragmented I feel stressed and I don’t think I have the time for the important things.
I notice the important things in my peripheral vision, so just like a fragmented computer, the right things are there but in the wrong spots. And that degrades the whole energy of my day, it doesn’t bring the best me forward. I feel glitchy from the moment I step out of bed.
How do you know when you feel fragmented? Is it too much on your to-do list? Is it hyper noticing the skills that need improvement in your family instead of appreciating their talents and gifts? Is it being too hard on yourself, everyone else can do it all, why can’t you?
The great thing is, when you notice that your life is fragmented, you can fix it. All the right pieces are already there. They just need to be spread out and sorted. The next post in this series will talk all about how to see all the pieces by using brain dumps and mental noise storage solutions.